Examine my feelings on my weight.
We could be here a while. Make sure you have food and water nearby.
When I was young and all the way to my early 20's, my weight problem was that I was too skinny. I ate diets to help gain weight and I was hiding those scrawny legs and arms constantly. SIGH! What a problem to have.
My being overweight problems started after pregnancy. It became harder and harder to lose weight after each baby - but - this was also the time that I was going through some whoppers of personal problems and as I have found depression plus me equals weight gain. I don't eat right when I'm depressed. So was it the change in hormones, the depression or all of the above? Who knows and who cares?
One thing I have also determined through years of reflection and doctor dollars - I am at a point that I would like for someone to like me whether I'm fat or not. After the divorce and a stress diet I lost the weight and "attracted" Robbie. I guess I've determined that if I lose weight someone wants me and if I don't I'm not wanted. Screwy, maybe. Also sounds like it's true.
Anyway, my feelings now? I don't like my body fat, but I do like me. If someone else doesn't see me without the body fat? Guess what? I don't see them either. Very freeing, actually.
So the whole thing in a nutshell? What weight problem?
(Might not be what the doctor wanted, but she did ask.)
1 comment:
I like you too. Just the way you are. If you want to lose weight I will most definitely support you. I just want you to know that no matter what I love you and it doesn't matter what you look like. I'm not exactly Christy Brinkly myself. Love you!
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